Posted to Facebook on September 10, 2019
I believe in local news and KALB gave me the opportunity to really dedicate myself to this beat, earning the title of your KALB West correspondent. I will always appreciate the autonomy and creative freedom I enjoyed in this position.
This past year was also one of the darkest seasons in my life and by now I thought I would have a more meaningful testimony to share, but I don’t really know what to say.
Seemingly out of nowhere, simple tasks became increasingly difficult until I felt completely overwhelmed.
I thought as long as this didn’t interfere with my job I could manage…of course until it did. Then I thought things would get better if I just worked harder. But anxiety and depression have a way of bleeding into every aspect of your life. It hurled itself from my body, like poison. It played over and over in my head, like a broken record. It followed me everywhere, like a shadow. I felt like I would never wake up from this nightmare.
I felt embarrassed, emotionally unstable, worthless and sometimes hopeless.
Why couldn’t I just get it together?
I’m still answering that question with some professional help.
I’m so blessed to also have a loving support system of family, friends, coworkers, supervisors and of course, all of you.
We have been through so much. You helped me come out of my shell and feel confidant being myself on-air. You have lifted me up, you have forgiven me for my mistakes and you’ve held me accountable. Even when I really just wanted to give up, your hugs, praise, conversations in person, kind emails, messages, cards, and gifts reminded me that I did have a place in this world and deserved to live in it.
I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished at KALB, but I want to be better. So I’m taking some time away from TV and pursuing other endeavors, like furthering my education in Mexico. My goal is to become more independent, resilient and confidant.
I will always be a storyteller. Now I’m just taking a detour to find new ways to live that passion. I hope you’ll keep in touch.